The Essence of Who I Am

      In this day and age, there seems to be  a rise in the number of people claiming to be a Christian. In fact, The Center for the Study of Global Christianity at Gordon Conwell Theological Seminary reported that the number of Christians in the world edged past 2.5 billion in 2019. That is a lot of Christians! However, mixed up in this number, we find individuals who say they are committed to Jesus yet their lifestyles and their actions disagree.     These individuals are treading above the water. They're in the shallow waters, to afraid to go deeper.  To call yourself a Christian means to commit every area of your life to Jesus. It means going all in. It means submerging yourself - descending below the surface. It means going deeper.     But how do you go deeper? How do you get rid of the  floaties? How do you stop treading water and just dive in? How? You start seeking a relationship with God.  #1 Going Deeper in Prayer ...

    I was looking through an old notebook and found this entry dated August 15, 2019. It is still relevant to me today, so I thought I'd share and also add a few thoughts to it. Here goes...     I am not enough. I'm not enough as a mother. I'm not enough as a wife. I'm not enough as a friend.  Substitute any word in the blank and still I am not enough. I've realized that I cannot be the person God created me to be on my own. I am not enough. I need and I must have God at the center of it all. When I try to be the mom, wife, daughter, and person I need to be on my own, I fail.      On my own, without a relationship with Christ, I fail. I never measure up. I make a mess of things. I blow up over something petty. I make the situation worse. But with God at the focus, I can do all things. Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." How can I do all things? Through Christ.  Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these thin...

        In chapter 4 of the book of Judges we find that a gain a Judge dies and the children of Israel go back to doing evil in the sight of God. The Bible says that everyone did what was right in their own eyes. So God gives them into the hand of King Jabin - the King of Canaan. Sisera was captain of the Canaanite army. He had 900 chariots of iron and op pressed the children of Israel for 20 years. For 20 years they were governed in an unfair and cruel way and prevented from having opportunities and freedom.       Finally they began to cry to God for help. They wanted to be delivered, so God sent a woman named Deborah. Deborah was a wife, a prophetess, and the only recorded female Judge in Israel. The Bible says that the children of Israel would come to her for judgement as she sat under the palm tree. God tells Deborah to tell an Israelite man named Barak to take 10,000 men and go deal with Sisera and his army. Barak tells her tha...

     I can't believe it has been seven years since I last blogged! I created this blog in 2008 and from my very first post all the way to my last post in 2013 I've updated on my marriage, the birth and growth of my babies, lessons I learned dealing with my brother's death, and so on. However, this time around I'd like to write more about my spiritual journey, my growth, the lessons I've learned and am still learning. I hope to edify, encourage, inspire, and strengthen. I hope to give you a glimpse of my heart as I share with you my journey in becoming the person God sees me to be. That being said, I'd like to share my testimony with you.      I was basically raised in the church. I was seven years old when my parents were filled with the Holy Ghost and I received the Holy Ghost a year or two later. I loved the church and had no desire to leave the safety of it.  Satan knew he would never get me to backslide; he would never get me to explore t...